Destined to make a difference in the world. At least, according to the voices in my head, I am. Cause what we tell ourselves matters to our well-being and all… even Snapchat knows what’s up, cause I’ve had that exact “most likely to” show up multiple times, which to me reads as synchronicity and an arrow pointing towards my higher purpose.
The debate between ol’ Elpheba and Glinda up there is whether I have to die again in this life to do so.
Yes… I said “this life.” I’m an old soul reincarnated in a meat-suit that has been self-destructing since I was still in utero, thanks to autoimmune deficiencies and hormonal discombobulation. How do I know I am an old soul? Because my awakening enlightened me on a lot of things about me.
And the first thing I learned is my life up until now has been so painful and frankly just plain fucking weird, because I chose the path less traveled. Instead of blaming my exes for abusing me, I looked inward to figure out why people kept doing pretty shitty things to me. I wanted to know what was it about me that made me a magnet for a certain type of person.
And when I say painful… I mean total conscientiousness “painful”. I mean universal empathy “painful”, meaning I’m going to willingly imagine myself going through the same pain you are describing so I can offer you support you have probably been looking for. So I can help you release your pain. Literally offer you biological, mythological, etymological, spiritual, literal, medical… I have parts of a lot of ologies bebopping around in my head (hence the “brainiac” bit). I am a black sheep by birthright… Leah Rae means “weary/delicate ewe,” according to Hebrew origin. According to Ancient Shepherding law the little black lamb was always seen as a symbol of good luck to protect the rest of the herd from illness and disease. Basically like a sheep jesus…Sheesus….
Skidmore means “shield of the Moors (land)” and I’m trying to save the world from humans, and also humans from themselves…. My soul was an overzealous little shit in the ether; I’ll tell ya that for free. I mean I’ll tell ya a lot of things for free cause celestially speaking, I identify as Lucifer, the light-bringer, and Venus, Goddess of love… aka Eve. Ego vs. Emotion. Resurrected to be the savior everyone keeps praying for but so far only one person has outwardly acknowledged And I promise I will get into all of that in greater and clearer detail in other entries. This post is just to explain my purpose for this multi-platform project.
So I am a healer of sorts, but not the typical type… because I am Atypical, like the show on Netflix… clearly on the spectrum but not exactly “fitting” under the diagnosis of “Autism.” Atypical, as in a neurology unlike what science proposes and predicts. literally an anomaly.
Anyway… I’ve been working on this same fucking entry for days now and have already started like 10 other things I want to write about in my head… So I think it best I end here and pick it up later…
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