Hi….

My name is Leah and I am a human adult who was very much disabled for… well, it depends on how you want to look at it.

I was 26 days overdue with a hypersensitive overdeveloped nervous system… and at 30 or 31 I would find out I have genetic mutations affecting both my cardio/vascular system, and my corneas ( that has also been linked to weak bones). Also I was born fully conscious and making memories apparently. But I didn’t feel like anything was wrong with me, although my mother did…

Being birthed and raised by a woman with a Mars mentality was pretty disabling too. You know, Mars, as in the Roman God of war: “I will fight for what I believe in”… that way of thinking. Which is good on her for sticking to her morals, but as I was reminded multiple times as a kid, they hadn’t planned on me being, well… me. I believe the correct phrase from my childhood memories was, “When your daddy and I sat down and decided to bring a baby into the world, this is not what we had in mind.” How many times do you think a kid needs to hear something like that for it to leave a mark?

Trick question, I could already tell I wasn’t what she wanted… but who the fuck in their right mind says something like that to a kid. Hell my own kid wasn’t even consensual and I would never tell her that!

Shit…. I’m spiraling again… FUCK!